As always thanks to everyone for the birthday wishes! For those of you that know me this is the day I recount, relive, and reflect on the year since my last b-day. As always it can be long and there are a few people who will get to the end (a few in particular I hope will) but I realize I’m not writing this for them because it’s my BIRTHDAY!
This year has been filled with more of the rollercoaster ride highs and lows that I call my life, but this past year it seems that the highs where over the top and the lows weighed so heavily…so I ran. I ran, I completed my first 10k on Father’s Day at the Ricky Birdsong Race Against Hate first time I ran for a cause but won’t be the last! I ran literally and figuratively at times doing them both simultaneously. Some days I was running to something and sometimes, yes running away. I ran when I was happy, sad, angry (running angry is the best!) and when I just needed to think. This past Sunday I ran 8.25 miles a personal distance best and it was a Forrest Gump kinda run…I could have and wanted to just keep going.
Oh! Happy Founder’s Day to my Brothers of Omega Psi Phi!
Here is the place where I excuse those who want to stop J thanks for getting this far!
Ok, I think they are all gone now 😉
For those that I love, and I know that love me there is this; you have seen some of the turmoil and real struggles I have gone through this year. There have been times where I was sure I was going to go insane and maybe I did for a bit! Very few people know about my Angel that I carry every day, it’s over two years old and I lost her once…remember how miserable I was when I thought I did? Long story short, even when I thought I’d lost her it turned out she was with me the whole time! My Angel represents everything I need in my life constantly…love, hope, joy, spirituality, and friendship (She’s a Friendship Angel after all). She helped and I will never lose her again.
This year I learned that too much truth can be a bad thing, and sometimes when it is bald, out there and new it is not ready for public consumption, if I had learned that little nugget a few months ago this birthday missive would have been far different.
“That’s all I got to say about that.”
As always on my birthday I think and talk about my boys! I am overwhelmed with pride on how far they have come, and the best part of this year is the true brotherly love they share. Thank you, boys, for growing up and growing closer this year and you are still my greatest accomplishment!
In my birthday rant of 2013, I said “For those of you in my circle, the roller-coaster will continue, hang on if you can! Please remember that the changes in the next year are not about you (it’s my birthday and I can say that). The path that I am on is directed by God but comes from me first asking him to “order my steps” and then most importantly listening to Him when he tells me which way to go instead of rebelling or doing what other people want/need me to do. If you try to do the right things by other people and it leaves you unfulfilled and without joy, you are not following the steps He has ordered…” Some of you fell off, jumped or may have even been pushed but it was always in the valley of my rollercoaster…when I can look you in the eye at the pinnacle of the ride and reach out my hand it’s because He has ordered my steps and I am on the right path to my future.
I think that is enough for this year, if you are at this sentence yes, I love you! If you understand it all I know you love me and always will.
As always, if you got to the end of this don’t worry about getting me a gift…you just did!
Tracey
